ok. i think the dinner was not too bad. probably cos xy and clement was there. hahas. thanks so much for lightenin the mood eh. well. i cant deny that it was really pretty awkward in the beginnin, but it got better towards the end. and yea, im not gonna give anyone directions again. hahas. im a total failure in that. lols.
to be frank. i was havin mixed feelings initially. ok. yes, i cant deny that im super thrilled to see him again. and yet again, i wasnt too eager to see him. hahas. super contradictin huh. well, that's me. hahas. i even thought he wanted to bring me to pasir ris park to eat grass. lols. so very silly of me.
gees, actually i thought of talkin about the past on the way home. you know, reminisce? hahas. but i guess the mood was far too chirpy as we two crapped alot on the way home. and the time didnt seem right too. afterall, it was the first time we really had a decent talk after so long. so talkin about such stuff would be super super wierd. hahas. IF he asks me out again, it would be a better time to talk maybe? lols. that is IF he asks me out, and he WANTS to talk about it. hahas. CRAP. one thing that touched me is, he still remembers i like to eat fishballs from pasar malams. he even offered to get one for me when we drove past one pasar malam. well, ok, he may sound as if he's kiddin, but, at least he remembered right? lols.
and i realised we've both grown up. he's now in NS. and im gonna graduate soon. how time flies. talkin about that, i remembered he took another route back to my house when returnin from clement's house. he says it would be faster and he knows that route better. well, maybe he cant wait for me to get out of his car. ive no idea. hahas.
maybe such dinners will occur more often. i dont mind though. but. that's if he asks. hahas. i dont even know how im feelin. i dont know how he's feelin. hai. whatever k.
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潘玮柏 - 我让你走了
我一直坐在咖啡厅的角落
没有人发现我还在难过
其实早就已经忘了怎么说
就算再怎么舍不得
你还是走了
我还不想承认这事实
怎么会变成这个样子
没有了
我真的什么都没有了
就像一个废人
回家的路上我哭了
眼泪再一次崩溃了
无能为力这样走着
再也不敢骄傲奢求了
我还能够说些什么
我还能够做些什么
我好希望你会听见 因为爱你
我让你走了